Boys and men are a rarity in my family. The last three generations my family has been made up of primarily women so when I think of Mothers day I think of the mother daughter relationship.
I created Clara and baby Lanie with Mothers day and all that being a daughter and a mother means to me. Motherhood is truly a gift. Without it one can neverly fully understand, appreciate or properly forgive her own mother.
I frequently have light bulb moments in motherhood as I'm screaming at my daughter or exasperated with her mood swings, remembering my own mothers frustration and misunderstanding of me when I was a daughter at a similar age and she was a mother.
With motherhood comes the most extreme emotions of love, fear, joy, anxiety, resentment, pride, guilt, regret..the list goes on. With motherhood comes every emotion that makes us human. It truly is a gift.
My daughter NoraLeigh recently said to me, "mom, I'm afraid to have a child. Afraid I won't raise her right" my response to her was, "all you can do darling is do the best you can and love them as much as you can, and you'll be a wonderful mother". The rest just plays out and that is what makes us not perfect but beautiful mothers.
Happy Mothers Day to all those perhaps not perfect by beautiful mothers out there!!
6 comments:
I lost my Mom to cancer when I was 14 and my sister was 10. We kinda joke that we raised each other. I have a few more memories of her than my sister does, but she has become the most WONDERFUL mother that I know. I think she just does everything that she wishes she had as she grew up. I think being a Mom is just something that comes straight from your heart and isn't always learned. Thanks for this post. :)
XOXO - Cindi
(ADORE Clara and Lanie)
I love that you made the baby yawning...it's one of my favorite "baby faces" and so original here! Love it.
And thanks for the Mom's Day tribute. My mom passed almost twenty yrs ago at 47, the age I am now...
I have two daughters who are each mothers now, and just as bewildered as I was. :~)
Happy Mother's Day to you, Colleen!
This is a beautiful post Colleen and you covered all the feelings and moments that I also discovered with my two daughters.
Love your concept art...
I loved the advice you gave to your daughter Nora.
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Beautiful blog about your daughter and mom. I do sometimes feel like I'm just stumbling in the dark when it comes to my kids, but you are right-when you err with love you can't go wrong.
Thanks!
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